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Once again, I get into a random funk for no reason. Went out to dinner with Z, was feeling great, went to A2Z, nothing there we wanted, so I decided I wanted to go to Blockbuster to rent SSX Tricky again. We got there and found out Dan had the night off...
... and suddenly, my night just went straight to shit, at least in my mind.
I didn't want to rent Tricky, or MGS2, or anything. I didn't even want to go anywhere else. I just wanted to go home and curl up in bed. Somehow, Dan not being at work just flipped a switch in my mind that just kicked in my depression. I don't know why. It's just like when I discovered Dan wasn't there, breaking my perfect little image of the world, I stopped caring about anything.
This disturbs me. I think it was disappointment that did it. Disappointment that things were not as they should be, or how I would have liked them to be.
Oh well. Time to wait for the depression to roll over me like an ocean wave. I think I've already hit the low point. Just got to climb back out of it.
... and suddenly, my night just went straight to shit, at least in my mind.
I didn't want to rent Tricky, or MGS2, or anything. I didn't even want to go anywhere else. I just wanted to go home and curl up in bed. Somehow, Dan not being at work just flipped a switch in my mind that just kicked in my depression. I don't know why. It's just like when I discovered Dan wasn't there, breaking my perfect little image of the world, I stopped caring about anything.
This disturbs me. I think it was disappointment that did it. Disappointment that things were not as they should be, or how I would have liked them to be.
Oh well. Time to wait for the depression to roll over me like an ocean wave. I think I've already hit the low point. Just got to climb back out of it.
