Money worries, part 2
Nov. 16th, 2001 06:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nockergeekWell, we're halfway into November, and our financial situation looks like it's not getting any better. It's not getting any worse, thank God, but it's not improving at all. Z's still jobless - no response from Barnes & Noble, despite repeated promises, the manager at Sally's Beauty Supply is eternally not there, and Z has yet to get her Bed Bath and Beyond application in. Meanwhile, no bonuses yet at work, and no raises in sight. Money that Z's mom had said she was sending never materialized. The parking recompensation from my company won't kick in until the next paycheck. My eBay auctions are coming along nicely -- around $95 right now -- but that money can't go to extraneous items... has to go to bills instead. And I was so close to getting DDR.
Heck, we can barely afford movie tickets, but Z has some cash stashed away so we can see Harry Potter tomorrow.
So basically, we're dirt poor again. And with Christmas coming up, too. Yay. We're barely making bills... in fact, we're _not_ making bills. Oh, we're making all the important bills -- rent, phone, car, utilities -- but we're starting to skip the lesser bills, and I hate doing this.
Suck suck suck suck suck.
I'm just getting really down on the whole thing. We're having to give up any of the little luxuries. ANd I know, they're just luxuries. We don't -need- them. But it still sucks. We'll barely make groceries next week. I know we'll be running with less than $100 in the bank. We've rarely been that low. I know, we'll be that low for only a few days, but I'm still really scared.
Dad says he and Mom are praying for us. I still don't know about prayer... it's like asking God to bend the universe a little just for us, and I wonder: does He have the time? There's people in this world who need help a lot more than we do... can He justify helping our cause?
(And yes, in case you're wondering, I'm still not sold on the all-powerful, all-good image of God yet... I believe He exists, but the old Problem of Evil still bothers me. If he's both all-powerful AND all-good, why does he even let evil and suffering exist?)
But maybe, just maybe, God can touch a few people in the right places. Touch them in their hearts and minds, and send us some help. I don't need an all-powerful God, or even an all-good one. A caring God who does his best, and has the power to touch the hearts and minds of people around the world... that's sufficient for me and my faith.
Wow. Money troubles get me on a spiritual tangent. Interesting.
Anyway, again, pray for us, everyone. Maybe God will hear you. I have to hope. That's all I can do. Put my trust in Love.
Peace.
Heck, we can barely afford movie tickets, but Z has some cash stashed away so we can see Harry Potter tomorrow.
So basically, we're dirt poor again. And with Christmas coming up, too. Yay. We're barely making bills... in fact, we're _not_ making bills. Oh, we're making all the important bills -- rent, phone, car, utilities -- but we're starting to skip the lesser bills, and I hate doing this.
Suck suck suck suck suck.
I'm just getting really down on the whole thing. We're having to give up any of the little luxuries. ANd I know, they're just luxuries. We don't -need- them. But it still sucks. We'll barely make groceries next week. I know we'll be running with less than $100 in the bank. We've rarely been that low. I know, we'll be that low for only a few days, but I'm still really scared.
Dad says he and Mom are praying for us. I still don't know about prayer... it's like asking God to bend the universe a little just for us, and I wonder: does He have the time? There's people in this world who need help a lot more than we do... can He justify helping our cause?
(And yes, in case you're wondering, I'm still not sold on the all-powerful, all-good image of God yet... I believe He exists, but the old Problem of Evil still bothers me. If he's both all-powerful AND all-good, why does he even let evil and suffering exist?)
But maybe, just maybe, God can touch a few people in the right places. Touch them in their hearts and minds, and send us some help. I don't need an all-powerful God, or even an all-good one. A caring God who does his best, and has the power to touch the hearts and minds of people around the world... that's sufficient for me and my faith.
Wow. Money troubles get me on a spiritual tangent. Interesting.
Anyway, again, pray for us, everyone. Maybe God will hear you. I have to hope. That's all I can do. Put my trust in Love.
Peace.
