Adjusting.

[nockergeek]

I'm not used to Z having friends around who aren't also my friends (or at least aren't close friends). She's out running around with her people, and this makes me feel strange. I won't see her much tonight, most likely, and I can't imagine that the weekend's going to be any less busy.

I'm not saying this is a bad thing, really. I'm happy to see her socializing more. It's just odd that she's not socializing along with me. We've always hung out with friends together if she's gone out, and now I'm hearing about her having experiences and doing things that I'm not a part of. I had the same feelings welling up when she went to Baltimore, and after she returned and recounted her experiences. Feelings of isolation, alienation, separation. Not painful, just... unusual. Like she's just a bit more separated from me than before. Makes me feel uneasy, but I've never handled change well, and this is a pretty big change from the Z who always retreats to the office when people are over.

Worst part is, I don't think there's much I can do about it (not that I want to tell her to stop hanging out without me.)

Comments

[yukimi.livejournal.com]

Put your woman in check. She shouldn't be allowed those shoes either.

*hugs ya*
You are such a fretter Mr. Kettle. :D

[psychousagi.livejournal.com]

Do not worry! It is a positive thing for Z to be oot-und-aboot. When I was still with my Ex-husb., I didn't do much socializing outside of the close Cam circle, and when I rarely did with people he didn't really know, it made him *angry*. One of the biggest problems that came with being hitched was being considered not-your-own-individual-self anymore... but I don't see that with you and Le' Z. You are both independent and smart enough and loving enough that you are a good couple and fine individuals simultaneously! That doesn't happen very much! :)