nockergeek | Urgh.

Frustrated, bored, tired, listless, annoyed at everything and nothing. Cabin fever, or lonliness? It's weird. I've been with Z all day, and yet I feel like I've hardly seen her. We took a nap together, and I was too unconscious to even notice her, and since then she's been MUXing all night. And now she's signing up for yet another MUX. That's the third one, with 4 characters between them. I'm worried that she's going to start focusing completely on MUXing and not at all on her art. All she's been doing with her art lately is making pictures of her MUX characters. It's art, and it's well done art, but I worry that she's working herself into a rut. I've seen her do it in the past... where she gets so stuck on one or two themes that she has trouble doing anything else. She also hasn't been contacting any companies to look for more freelance work, which concerns me as well. She says she's been having artist's block lately, but sometimes I wonder if she dosn't diversify her art enough. Not so much on styles, I mean - she's got many varied styles - but on subject matter. All she does lately is draw Mikoto, or Kirra, or Fou-Lu, or her new angel character, or any related characters. There's no real exploration into other subject matters, no forays into other aspects of fantasy or sci-fi, nothing really new or different for her.

It's her artwork, and it's her choice on what to portray in it, but I still worry about her. And I worry that she's getting too drawn into the world of MUXing again. I miss her spending time with me. She still does, but not nearly as much as she did.

*sighs*

And yet, I don't want to tell her "no". She has no other hobbies, and doesn't socialize much with people otherwise. She's very shy around people IRL, so anything that lets her talk with friends is good. I just worry that it'll take too large a part of her time and life away.

Hey, I love her. I'm allowed to worry.