nockergeek | (no subject)

Oh, it was a beautiful morning. The sun hadn't quite broken over the hills, so there was a warm pink glow under the grey clouds that were swiftly moving beyond the east. To the west, the moon, large and swollen just above the horizon, was a pale rose color as it mirrored the colors of the encroaching dawn.

That, and the pair of golden eagles we saw yesterday in the trees to our east (and later in the skies above us) reminded me of how beautiful the place where we live really is. I'm glad Z picked it.

Speaking of Z, I'm a bit concerned about her. She didn't want to go out to Seth and Kim's on Friday night because she had writing she wanted to do. Okay, fair enough. Now she just doesn't want to go over there tonight. Why? I don't know. She just... doesn't. There's nothing really wrong with that - it's her right to decide what she does and doesn't want to do - but still, I'd rather go over there with her than without her. I don't know why she's being anti-social, or if she's even being intentionally anti-social. Maybe it's something else. All I know is that I'd really like her to go out there with me tonight. I mean, these are her friends too, and they really want to see her, and I can tell they're a little hurt because she doesn't want to see them... or maybe she does want to see them, but something else is stopping her. Or maybe she's just not interested in socializing with anyone.

I don't know, and it's bugging me.

And I don't want to go by myself, because I feel better when she's around, and also because I'd feel guilty, like I'm ignoring her or abandoning her somehow, and also because I want to share the experience with her.

I don't know what I'll do. I hope I can change her mind. I wish I knew what to do.