nockergeek | Still Fighting It

In the past, I've described having to ride the wave of depression, and I think it's a very good analogy. It crests and dips; sometimes you're on top of it, just riding it and feeling it beneath you, feeling decent, and sometimes you get pulled under and you have to fight it to get to the surface again. In the end, you just have to wait for it to spit you back out onto the shore.

I'm doing better today, but I still drift between good and bad moments. Food helps, as does conversation. Dad brought up a good point last night -- programming is a very solitary activity, especailly when you're not part of a development team on a project -- which doesn't leave much opportunity for conversation.

Perhaps when things slow down this week, I can spend some time with friends; I need to get out and be with people. I know that Z's for me when I get home, but we have somewhat different interests and more often than not, we end up doing our own things. She's my best friend in the world, but I also need to be with people who I share hobbies with. Hanging with friends is good for me.

Creating things helps too. Made a new wallpaper for my computer last night, using some Hellboy art (in a manner of speaking) by Phil Noto, and I'm really happy with how it came out. Perhaps I should put together some more wallpapers from time to time; it feels good to do some simple digital art, even if it's just something small like a wallpaper.

And just to show that, even when depressed, I haven't lost my appreciation for whimsy...