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Leaving once again
My WoW account runs out on September 1st. I don't have any plans at present to renew it.
The fault doesn't lie with the game, or even with the playerbase. In break-up terms, "it's not you, it's me." I just don't think I have the mentality for multiplayer games, especially MMOs, and especially WoW. As I've mentioned before, I'm a shy person, even online, so I only want to play with my friends. Unfortunately, my friends who play are scattered across a dozen WoW servers, and I don't have the time for multiple main characters, so I have to pick and choose. Having limited time also means I tend to fall behind, so while everyone in my guild has a lot of raiding experience and multiple level-70s, I'm still at level 67. I don't have anyone level-appropriate to do instances with, and most people are busy prepping for raids or doing PvP, so I just end up grinding solo. Right now, I just don't have the drive to do it... and when Lich King comes out, I really don't want to do it again. I could PUG, but I'm too self-conscious and shy and I just end up putting it off.
It's telling that when other things come up, and I end up spending a couple of weeks from the game, there's no drive to come back. We went on vacation last week, and before that I put in a couple of weeks-worth of evenings painting my 40k minis. That's 3-4 weeks away from the game, and I don't feel like I'm missing anything other than the $14.99 that comes out of my wallet each month. I can't say that the game's not fun - I enjoy myself while I'm playing - but it's like a buzz that fades quickly. Part of me really wants to keep liking it, but I just don't know if it's ever going to click for me again the way it did when all my friends were on the same server and we could all run around together. Maybe I need a bunch of casuals to run with, but I've never had a group of casuals stay that way. Invariably, people want to raid, because they want to keep progressing characters and seeing new content, and I can't blame them. I just find it to be too much time and work for my tastes, which means I fall behind again and again. Again, it's not their fault - they're playing the game as intended. I'm the weirdo who doesn't quite fit into the game plan.
I might change my mind, I don't know. I'm just caught in a conundrum - tired of soloing, but too shy/insecure to ask for help - which means I'm just not MMO material.
The fault doesn't lie with the game, or even with the playerbase. In break-up terms, "it's not you, it's me." I just don't think I have the mentality for multiplayer games, especially MMOs, and especially WoW. As I've mentioned before, I'm a shy person, even online, so I only want to play with my friends. Unfortunately, my friends who play are scattered across a dozen WoW servers, and I don't have the time for multiple main characters, so I have to pick and choose. Having limited time also means I tend to fall behind, so while everyone in my guild has a lot of raiding experience and multiple level-70s, I'm still at level 67. I don't have anyone level-appropriate to do instances with, and most people are busy prepping for raids or doing PvP, so I just end up grinding solo. Right now, I just don't have the drive to do it... and when Lich King comes out, I really don't want to do it again. I could PUG, but I'm too self-conscious and shy and I just end up putting it off.
It's telling that when other things come up, and I end up spending a couple of weeks from the game, there's no drive to come back. We went on vacation last week, and before that I put in a couple of weeks-worth of evenings painting my 40k minis. That's 3-4 weeks away from the game, and I don't feel like I'm missing anything other than the $14.99 that comes out of my wallet each month. I can't say that the game's not fun - I enjoy myself while I'm playing - but it's like a buzz that fades quickly. Part of me really wants to keep liking it, but I just don't know if it's ever going to click for me again the way it did when all my friends were on the same server and we could all run around together. Maybe I need a bunch of casuals to run with, but I've never had a group of casuals stay that way. Invariably, people want to raid, because they want to keep progressing characters and seeing new content, and I can't blame them. I just find it to be too much time and work for my tastes, which means I fall behind again and again. Again, it's not their fault - they're playing the game as intended. I'm the weirdo who doesn't quite fit into the game plan.
I might change my mind, I don't know. I'm just caught in a conundrum - tired of soloing, but too shy/insecure to ask for help - which means I'm just not MMO material.