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Dec. 21st, 2004 01:30 amSomething's had me on edge all weekend, and today too, but I'm damned if I know what it is. The fact that my happy little bipolar disorder is acting up isn't helping things. Just been up and down since Saturday, and generally for no good reason. Work was stressful, but it shouldn't have frustrated me as badly as it did; my brain actually locked up at a couple of points. Being too frustrated to think... it made me panic a bit. After that, I was a bit mopey in the evening; the smallest things would get me down.
However, a bowl of salad made with love perked me back up, along with a little Naruto: Gekitou Ninja Taisen 3 (yes, it arrived) and some WoW. I'm up way too late, but at least my mind feels, if not better, at least at a content baseline. It's weird; I can almost feel the depression, like it sits just behind my eyes. When it kicks in, I almost feel a weight there; it drags me down a bit, pulls my eyes to the ground, makes me tired and irritable. I could feel it trying to seep back into my mind a couple of times this evening, but I'm not going to let it. At least, I'm going to try my best...
However, a bowl of salad made with love perked me back up, along with a little Naruto: Gekitou Ninja Taisen 3 (yes, it arrived) and some WoW. I'm up way too late, but at least my mind feels, if not better, at least at a content baseline. It's weird; I can almost feel the depression, like it sits just behind my eyes. When it kicks in, I almost feel a weight there; it drags me down a bit, pulls my eyes to the ground, makes me tired and irritable. I could feel it trying to seep back into my mind a couple of times this evening, but I'm not going to let it. At least, I'm going to try my best...
